Today in my quiet time, I found myself angry. I wasn’t angry about outside circumstances but angry at the attempts the enemy has recently made to derail me, my family, our dreams, etc. The more I read and the more God spoke to my heart, the more angry I became. I lifted my laptop screen and began typing. Below is what came out:
Why do you torment? Why do you feed those weak parts within me? You target the issues that I’ve battled to overcome and I try, yet sometimes you win. I know your pressure points and I try to expect but oftentimes you seem to outsmart me. You make me feel weak and insecure. You make me feel as though God has forgotten me. You relish in the fact that I withdraw. When my thoughts are scattered, you are there to add to my struggle. I’m confused about who I am and I waver. I try too hard and fail too much. Your schemes to derail me are working…or though it seems. Your plans to take me out may delay me but your plans only push me further… further into a deeper understanding of who God is, how big He is, how hard I must fight and how much I need Him.
Friend, today if you’re struggling…if the enemy is relentlessly attacking you, know this…God is above it. He is fighting on your behalf and working to reveal the solution to you. God sees you and He is moving heaven and earth to position you where you need to be. The enemy has no authority over you and you can walk confidently knowing that the Lord is faithful and He will bring you through it!
Don’t give in, don’t give up, fix your eyes on Jesus and move forward in faith. He will carry you when you’re too weak to walk. He will defend you when you don’t have the energy or words to speak on your own behalf. He will give wisdom and clarity in situations that seem crazy and chaotic. He is good and what He allows is for our good. He uses it all and doesn’t waste a thing. Rest in Him!
Isaiah 40:31 “….but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
Be blessed today! XOXO